Once Again From the Top

​ Today was a day of mixed emotions.  I did a morning workout and officially did my leg lifts unassisted. My bad leg may have only left the bed an inch or two but I did every lift on my own. My physical therapist increased my count on my arms so they were nice and sore. This afternoon I decided to do a second set of leg exercises but skipped the lifts, my right leg was spent. And yes the bad pun is a cross between Bill and Ted and the Aristotle quote in the picture. I have to start building good habits and working daily to my goals to achieve excellence.  So all that was positive, but found out today that my sister has a bleeding ulcer and is having surgery in a few weeks. Sucky part. Please pray for her during this time.  I ask prayers for myself as well as comments or anything else you think will help. 

​ Had physical therapy today and I am sore. My therapist said I am moving better, I’m not satisfied with my progress on my right leg but I’ll get it there.  The caregiver service that was supposed to be providing a caregiver for me still can’t find anyone, and we were told today that they can’t hire my wife like they told us they could. So. Back on the struggle bus.  The doctor wants me to get a sleep study done but the copayment is more than I can handle this month. Haven’t heard anything about the hospital bed but I don’t have the copayment for that either. My depression and anxiety are super high, but I try to keep a smile on my face and faith in my heart, but I’m in fake it till you make it mode. My nightmares have been more severe the last few days and I almost don’t want to sleep.  Please send prayers, comments, or anything else you think will help me. 

​ The weekend was standard wake up try to eat better and exercise. I’m not saying that I was perfect but I tried.  Today I got up had breakfast took my medicine and for everyone who has suggested it, I called Dr Now’s office. Because you can’t just call TLC and ask to be on the show. At least I couldn’t find out how. Short answer is he takes my insurance but I’m out of network so the co-pay is $250. So we are going to save up and hopefully he can help. Rest of the day went as normal did my exercises and tried to think about how to proceed.  Send prayers, comments, or anything else you think will help. 

​ Please help Talk to me The second set of exercises yesterday stretched me hurt me good. I had pain medicine before breakfast. Took most of the day to day to exercise today and I needed help with leg lifts on my bad leg.  Other things I found out today: my sleep study was approved and I have to come up with $140 for copay (I still need to get $650 for the hospital bed, and $2000 for my wheelchair), plus an ambulance copayment of $250, good news it looks like they are going to let my wife work as my caregiver. But as you can see I have a ton of medical bills to pay and no way to pay them. I stay stressed and depressed and have frequent anxiety attacks. I know things are tight but I need help and anything will help me.  Send prayers, comments or anything else you think will help me. Please share using #makemikemobile 

​ Need to talk? Anything would help  I thought I was not doing physical therapy today as my therapist was booked. I woke up hurting so I took a pain med with breakfast. When that had kicked in I did my exercises minus right leg lifts.  About 12:30 my therapist calls she had a cancellation and could be here in thirty minutes so I took the appointment. This meant doing all the exercises again without the pain med. She had to assist with the sweeps and lifts. She showed no mercy. I was in tears by the final lift.  Leave a prayer, comment, or anything else you think will help. Please share using #makemikemobile 

​ Need to tell something or someone to talk to? Help me with my medical bills? I fell like today didn’t go so good. I did my basic exercises but my leg sweeps and lifts my legs said no.  I would have asked for help but my wife was under the weather. She is feeling a bit better but please pray she gets better soon.  Still trying to get a hospital bed the red tapo is ridiculous. I get to call tomorrow and see if my Dr got the paperwork back to the vendor.  Send prayers comments or anything else you think will help. Please share using #makemikemobile 

​ Shoot me a message Any help is appreciated First I know it’s technically Tuesday morning I fell asleep when my muscle relaxer kicked in. I’m sorry.  Now I have been cut back to one set as I am not really strong enough for two just yet. I guess one of the dogs slept on my legs wrong because I did everything including my leg sweeps, but when I started leg lifts with my good leg by the time I got to ten I could barely move it and wanted to scream. I couldn’t even manage one lift off my bad leg. I guess I am going to have to have assistance with those.  Other news I can’t remember if I posted on Friday, the coordinator for therapy came out and did my evaluation and she said I have a lot more range of motion and continuing therapy would help. So they are trying to get two more months approved.  Please send prayers and comments or anything else you think will help. Please share the blog using #makemikemobile 

​ Email Me   A little help if you please My lovely wife got me a Winnie the Pooh bear. It was almost as granny came for a visit.  Did my workout. Limping through the leg lifts, but I fought on. Not a whole lot to blog about it was a lazy rainy Saturday.  Please pray, comment, or anything else you think will help. Please share using #makemikemobile 

​ Email me A little help First I apologize about Thursday’s blog. I was hurting took some pain meds and fell asleep.  Today was a good day the pt evaluator came and said the therapy was definitely helping I can now, although with pain,  lift my right foot off the bed, and my right knee has popped several times and I can now bend it some. She is trying for two more months of therapy.  Please send prayers and comments or anything else you think will help. Please share using #makemikemobile 

​ Email Help for medical bills  Typical day although I am doing single sets again to cut back on pain. Wife helped me out with leg lifts on my bad leg.  Had a scare tonight I had a gas pocket around my heart and we were afraid I was having a heart attack. Called 911 and had the medics check me out.  They hooked me to the EKG took my BP and glucose levels. Everything was normal. They said only bloodwork could verify no heart attack, but I told them the pressure was gone and since everything was normal I’d rather just stay home.  Send prayers and comments or anything else you think will help. Please share using #makemikemobile 

​ Email Help me out So I sure many of you were confused about the error message after clicking on blog links, so yeah I may have been accidentally deleting them while trying to share with friends off Facebook.  S o brief catch up I managed to work out up till Saturday then I was hurting too bad and took off till today when my physical therapist came.  I got in trouble and was told if I needed to skip my leg lifts or sweeps that was fine but do the rest of the set. She then proceeded to increase my sweeps and lifts to 50 reps per set assisted.  So, I’ll keep pushing until this wall breaks and I can advance.  As always send prayers and comments or any thing else you think will help me out. 

​ Fundraiser Email Yea sometimes you beat on the wall other times if feels like the wall beat on you.  I woke up so stiff that I could barely move, it took me all day to complete one set I’m hurting so bad. No pain no gain. I probably should have rested, but I’m a stubborn old man, and I’m determined to walk again.  I talked to my PCP today he is going to set up an in home sleep study to see if I need a CPAP. He is also following up on my bed and a few other things. He said as long as was working out he would give me Tramadol prn for days like today.  This day was a kick in the back side. I feel like I lost ground today and it hurts. I’m depressed and anxious, and I here a voice from my past telling what a loser I am.  Well tomorrow is another day another chance. Send prayers, comments or anything else you think would help. 

​ Fundraiser Email Welcome to my wall. No matter how hard I push it, or kick it, or headbutt it, it doesn’t move or crack.  At least not yet. The body and mind put up barriers to keep you safe. It can take weeks or months for your body to say you are ready to move forward. But I know at least on the workout side of things, after a wall is rapid progress to the next wall.  The mind may have a series of walls to try keep you safe. So progress may be slower.  I’ve been trying to do my exercises unassisted. This means at times my right foot doesn’t leave the bed. However, I think the struggle of trying to pick it up does more than it being lifted for me. I only did one set Saturday and Sunday each, but today I went back to double sets.  I hate this process of plateauing. I always feel like I’m never going to break the wall. I do meet with my doctors tomorrow and my therapist on Wednesday so maybe I break this funk.  As always send prayers, comments and anything else...

​ Fundraiser I’m still pretty low from yesterday, the pain is still too fresh.  Updated the site theme for better readability, let me know what you think.  My workouts hit a wall today. I couldn’t do my second set leg sweeps on the right or leg lifts with either leg. It was just past my pain threshold. So, I guess this is my first plateau. I’ll have to push this wall till I can go further.  As always send prayers, comments, or anything else to help the blog and myself. Please share with the hashtag #makemikemobile. You can email me  here.  

Fundraiser ​ Today was a day I could have used Winnie the Pooh. Two years ago today my grandmother earned her wings. She was gentle but tough. Calm yet fierce. When I was very little she would Winnie the Pooh to me, then tell me biblical stories while I would lay on her lap. I remember napping to those stories and her singing gospel songs.  Granny knew when to coddle you and when to kick you in the pants. She kept me from missing out on family memories. On holidays we went to Granny’s. We would up 30 plus people in a two bedroom house.  Then they retired and we all went to the farm. Up to five generations came to be with Granny.  I miss her worship. I miss singing on the porch. I miss her advice (asked for or not). I really miss her prayers, I just assumed if Granny prayed about it God was on it.  I am grateful that Granny found PawPaw 10-12, my Grandpa died when I was 4. PawPaw acted like I was his own. Taught me to play NES. Pranked me and has loved me. I’m glad he...

​ Fundraiser   Same routine. Worked out tried to more on my own. Just got to keep pushing.  Spent a few hours on the phone cutting through red tape and managed to get a problem uncovered so that I can get a home health aide a few hours a day a my wife can work and get out of the house a few hours.  Love y’all send prayers, comments, and please share the blog and spread #makemikemobile. 

​ Fundraiser So the weekend went well did my workouts, and relaxed. Got to spend quality time with my wife, which I enjoyed very much.  The workouts seems to going smoother and I’m starting to just barely pick up my right foot off the bed. I’m not as sore and my joints are starting to loosen some.  The depression, anxiety, and PTSD were manageable this weekend. The nightmares not so much. Then there is always something to work on.  Much love, leave a comment let me know what you think. Say a prayer, send a card it all helps.