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Been kind of a rough week my back has been fighting me hard. I have had several days where the pain was just too severe and I couldn't stand up. The days I could stand my back was so painful and cramped up that I nearly blacked out during the walk to or from the living room. Then there was Wednesday night and all-day Thursday.  Yeah. At about 16:00 on Wednesday, the internet stopped working. I check using my cell phone and the system should that for some reason they couldn't connect to my modem. I asked my brother to pull the power to it for a minute or two, then had him plug it in.  We wait and after it was fully rebooted, the same thing. So being the curious person I am, I decided to see if the hotspot they have in our complex was getting Internet. Nope, nada. So, I call tech support, and after dealing with menu upon menu, I somehow managed to talk to a real-life person. I explain that I have no internet access through my router and that the local hotspot has no internet as ...

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 Did a great deal this week. Started an eBay store with my friend, did some streaming , which I uploaded to YouTube .  Been a good week.  Had a virtual visit with my doctor on Monday, and she set me up with referrals to a neurologist for my migraines, a therapy evaluation appointment referral to see about getting me a wheelchair to help me get to in-person appointments, and possibly in-home physical therapy. She was able to get me in touch with my insurance to find a pain specialist for my back. Had a virtual meeting with my therapist for my depression, anxiety, and PTSD on Friday, we started a new program to help me work through my past trauma. The homework for this week is a bit scary, but I am hopeful in the end all of the nightmares and flashbacks will either be gone or greatly diminished. I did stay in bed one day, and out of love, my friend gave me a good reaming out over it. I tried to make some excuses, but yeah I need to push harder to get better. Diet has been ...

  I'm back. It has been a long few weeks, but hopefully I can keep myself on track this year and post once a week. This will be a broad strokes blog to catch up. I have been trying to get up front every day, I did have some bad days where back pain or a bad migraine kept me from getting up. I have an appointment with my doctor on Monday to try and address these issues. My wife and I have been trying to play a song live on Facebook daily. We took a week off for holidays, but hopefully we can get back to it next week. For the last week and a half or so, my eating habits have been changing drastically, eating smaller meals early that are healthier and a moderate dinner. I'm starting a new form of therapy next week to help with my PTSD symptoms and hopefully my nightmares. Can't think of anything else to update everyone on, so, I'll call this one done. As always feel free to comment below. 

This was a fun week. This will be a short post as I am in pain and having trouble focusing.  Week was pretty good at the beginning. I was going up front. I was playing music with my wife. And just generally enjoying life. We had a small thanksgiving dinner with my wife, my friend, who cooked it all for us, and man it was tasty, and myself.  On Thursday evening as I stood up to go to my bedroom for the night, my knee twisted and shot pain up into my back. By the time I had made it to my room, my back had locked up, I was hobbling, and I was having trouble breathing because of the muscle spasms in my back.  I have spent the last two days in bed hurting. Yesterday I had difficulty breathing all day, because of my back spasms. Today, my back just hurts and I’m having difficulty sitting up, but my back isn’t spasming, so at least I can breathe. I’m hoping that by tomorrow or Monday I be able to get back on my feet and go up front.  As always feel free to comment below....

 So, it has been a while.  I had several weeks in a row where my depression was so severe I didn't feel like posting. However, with the help of my wife, my family, and my good friend, I got through those tough weeks. I am doing quite a bit better now, I have been getting up every day. Whereas before I viewed this as a chore I needed to do to get better, I now look forward to getting up in the morning and walking to the living room. For the last few weeks, my wife and I have been playing music together, I did have to miss one day when I had a nasty migraine that kept me in bed all day, as I was dizzy and nauseous, because migraines are fun. My wife has been live-streaming the music to Facebook, and I have been taking the videos and uploading them to our YouTube channel. I have also been live-streaming myself playing some old video games on Twitch , which I then upload to our YouTube channel. I have been eating in a more conscious way. I'm trying to eat smaller portions, cut do...

Another week in the books.  I had a pretty decent week. I got up everyday except Thursday, when my back was acting up. I went to the doctor on Tuesday morning and was able to stand and walk more. When I got home I sat up most of the day.  The insomnia, nightmares, and anxiety flared up pretty bad a couple of days this week. I wasn’t able to sleep at all Friday night.  Still been eating good home cooked food. Drinking lots of water.  As always feel free to comment below. 

Not so good this week, but all I can do is keep moving forward.  I got sick the early part of the week and had to stay in my room close to the restroom. So, I lost two days there. Then Friday and Today my back has been locked up and spasming, and I could barely stand or even sit on the edge of the bed.  My sleep was way off. I had several nights of anxiety attacks and nightmares.  So all in all a fun week. But tomorrow starts a new week and another chance to keep going.  As always feel free to comment below. 

Another good week. Went up front most days.  I had to stay in bed on Wednesday because my back was cramped up so bad I could barely breathe. Didn’t make it up there today because my stomach was upset and I needed to stay near the restroom.  Still mostly having healthier homemade meals and drinking a lot more tea and water than soda. I feel like it’s getting easier to stand up from my bed. Also, I seem to be less out of breath after walking up front.  Met with my therapist this week and we went over techniques to help me focus more. Having a support group here is really helping not have so many depressed or anxious days.  As always feel free to comment below. 

Had a great week. Got up front with the exception of two days.  It seems I have arthritis in my mid to lower back. All the exercise I have been doing has caused it to flair significantly.  Been eating nice home cooked food. And other than being tremendously sore, I feel like I am doing better than I have in a long time. Going to keep it short this week.  As always feel free to comment below. 

Hard to believe this week marks a year since I have started my journey again.  My buddy has stayed over to help me and I have walked to the front of the house every day this week. I have moved more in the last ten days than I have in the past two years.  We have been having good home cooked food and really cut back on the sodas. Although I’m sore, I feel like I am making progress.  The more I get up, the more I want to get up. I’m going to keep pushing and get my life back.  As always feel free to comment below. 

This has been an interesting week.  My wife is working split shifts with her client this week, so she hasn’t been home much. This normally wouldn’t be a problem, but I’ve been struggling with the loss of my grandmother. Fortunately, a good friend of mine came over to spend a few days.  This has been a great help he’s been helping me get out of the room every day. He’s even been doing the cooking so my wife doesn’t have to come home and make something. He used to be a restaurant line cook. So, he has been making good healthy food.  I’m a bit sore from walking and sitting up, but I feel good. I’m hoping I can get strong enough to not need help to go up front.  That’s it for this week and as always feel free to leave a comment below. 

This week the world lost a great soul. On Monday morning about 05:00, my grandmother took her final breath and crossed over to the next life. Yesterday was her home going ceremony.  She will be greatly missed by many. She influenced many lives. Touched many hearts. It is hard knowing I’ll never be able to talk to her again or hear her singing.  I’ve been pretty down all week but trying to stay strong the way my grandmother taught me to be.  My eating has been ok. Been hitting the chocolate a little heavy this week to try and cope.  As always feel free to comment below.